Every word feels like a shooting star.

Yo!

I know.. I know. I have not been updating this blog. Cause I find it ridiculous when I don't even post something that I really wanted to. Especially feelings. That's why I rather write everything in my diary rather than blogging about it. At least my diary won't tell anyone.

I haven't rant about my form 5 live yet. I wonder how far will I go, will I make it through everything? or collapse halfway through the journey? sigh. Life sure is tough.

A lot of things happened lately.
A lot of people changed.
Or maybe it's just me?
Cause I don't really know.

It's the last day of 2009 ! awww :(

Ohmygoodness larh D:
It's 31st December!

Gotta say bye to my torturing form 4 life already.
What's next?
Even torturing/stressful/miserable/killing form 5 life?
Woots!

" I CAN'T WAIT ! " -.-

Sighs.
Need to do some reflections already D:
It's always like this. EVERY YEAR! GAHHHHHHHHH !!!
I shall go prepare my new year's resolutions.


Taaa!

Warning ; Dead Blog.

Please be informed that silentmemoriesta.blogspot.com is no longer alive until the owner returns.
Thank you.

What a nightmare :(

18th May, third day of exam o.0
Chemistry Paper(1), it was okay :) but..
Chemistry Paper(2), haiyoo !There's this section, really no eye see. I don't even know what
crap I wrote :(

Basically, today was Chemistry Fever in school :(
still got 1 more paper for Chemistry. experiment paper. crap.
it's really torturing ! especially studying last minute ><

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Congrats to Kian Siong for winning the Teacher Dearest competition thing.
I don't even know that competition exist until yesterday o.0
Wanna see what he wrote? LOL!
click here :D [scroll down ! it's the second one! ]
*although I still think it's quite fake :x*
*paiseh! haha*

famous already la ! :x

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Tomorrow got Biology paper(2). GAWD !
and Additional Maths paper(2). DIEDIEDIE !
*sighs*
Another nightmare awaits for me tomorrow :(

11 days of torture :(

Yesterday
14th May, first day of exam o.0
BM paper(2), my tatabahasa suxs!
Physics paper(3), no eye see :(

Today
15th May, second day of exam o.0
English paper(2), still okay okay larh :)
PJK, wtfish! also no eye see :(

I had extra 40 minutes for English :) and I'm starting to like this. ahahah !

From She-Reen, people always mistaken my name.
it's always without "-" so it became Shereen.
From Shereen, cut off an "e" , it became Shreen :)
I wonder what's next ? o.0

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I WANT THOSE HOLIDAYS ! I DON'T WANNA STUDY, IT'S VERY TORTURING :(

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Random pictures :)
I'm liking the camera ah ! :D:D

the day when it blooms :)

this one look so fake. lol! sharpen it ady :x



o.0


Last but not least, my beloved Hugo :)

It's already the second month ! o.0

It's 13th May 2009
so fast.
fast till that I have to sit the Mid Year Test starting tomorrow ! ohgoshh ! and I'm not revising. I'm blogging.
ahhhhh !
and It ends on 28th ; wth! 21 papers ; wtfish!
I got the feeling that I will fail some of my papers. ohnevermind. immune to it already :(
and all the best to-those-who-are-sitting-for-their-exams-too!
hopefully it will end soon and I could enjoy 2 weeks holidays ! yay ! Cant wait ! Ohmygawd , haven't even sit for the papers already started thinking about holidays. watdef! but seriously,
I WANT THOSE HOLIDAYS BADLY !

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Oh ya! I kena jackpot today! so freaking lucky you know :x
It's once in a life time.
I received a golden token. hahahahah !
Actually, I think teacher did it on purpose. cause it's for the school's bulletin and since I'm one of the reporters. But who knows? maybe I was that lucky. LOL!

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My dad brought Hugo to the dog salon yesterday.
and Hugo came back with super short fur, especially on the face and the body ! but still very handsome looking :D

see the face :) super short eh !


I like this picture !




aw, he looks so cute :)


I love you , Hugo ! Just wanna let you know :x

I would not say that I'm right , but I will not admit that I'm wrong

is either up and down or left and right.
Can I stand in the middle?

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I'm seriously getting what I wanted day by day.
yet, I'm being ungrateful. *sighs*
dad giving me this ; mum giving me that ; uncle giving me this , aunt giving me that .

ohmygoshla.begratefullgirl!stopbeingsodemanding.appreciateplease!
keepthistoyourself.thisisreality.

Irresistible : (

I can't resist the temptation ah !
Can you like imagine you were doing your homework and the monitor is just in front of your study table ? Gosh ! Can you feel that kind of aurora ? Something like ...

" Come to Me ! "
" Click on Me ! "
" Play Me ! "

After downloading Audition ,
I got more delayed homeworks : (
Maybe it was a wrong thing to do : (
Nah !
It's the only game I ever enjoyed.
Not even MapleStory .
I got to do something with this ! I can't just delay all my homeworks.

Oh damn ! Two presentations tomorrow. Biology and History. Die History! Die!

Off to grandma's house.
Bye !

( Modern + Additional ) Mathematics = Homework Tsunami !

0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 8 9 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

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Note to self :

DO NOT TOUCH AUDITION UNTIL ALL ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS HOMEWORK ARE DONE !






Logarithms.
I hate you !

Homeworks.
I hate you too !

Tuition exams.
I hate you three !


Love Audition.
:x

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Till then , next post !
*rushes back to homeworks *

Cold feelings

I'm not any toy.
I'm a human.
with feelings,
just like you.

I thought you were my friend,
a good friend.
I thought you were being nice,
to me.
I thought you were someone I could trust,
to keep my secrets.





But why?

April what ?

April fool , go to school . call your teacher stupid fool ! ;x

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I'm starting to like pink-ish-grey :)

I'm delaying homeworks.

I'm so lazy to update.

I'm hating myself.

I'm ending my post.

: (

6 more days.

It was once a couple.

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shifted almost 60% of my stuffs already.
Left the clothing and school books.
really tiring -.-
It goes like this..

*packs packs packs packs*
*what's this?*
*rubbish*
*throws*
*grabs another box*
*continue packing*
*packs packs packs throws packs throws throws*

where got time to study larh?!
exams is just next week !
sighs.
I guess I won't be surprised to see an E or something.

Needa go again tomorrow.
rawr!
Breena . I'm so sorry !
I guess I let you down.
No basketball ; No badminton .
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People will change , right?
but I don't want my friends to change.

It's totally different talking to my ex-classmates already.
It's not like the way it was.
And I don't like it.
Change back please?

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I bet someone is really happy right now,
cause it ended this way.
too bad for me.
but too good for him/her.

go get your own life.

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My voice..
ahhhh !
It got worse -.-

having a sore throat is really killin' me.
and super painful.

Now I sound like..
!@#$%@#$@#$% !
oh darn it.
darn darn darn darn darn.

and guess what happened..
I feel like crying already . tsk tsk..


*Phone rings*
*Picks up the phone*
*Hello?*
*mum says hello*
*mum SAYS : Allan ah? It's gonna rain. Get the clothes in ! I'll be back soon*
*tuut...tuuut...tuuut..tuut..*

I'm turning into a boy ..

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I'm tired.
so off to bed !
Nights people.

Magatia

Kee Yang's love at first sight.

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It's payback time Kee Yang.
rawrrr !
=x
- I actually like that picture . lol !


FYI , it's Magatia.
a new town/map linked from Ariant.
robotics -.-

so as usual ,
every time we explore a new map..
Screenshots !! :D

so let the pictures do the talking ...

 

spot me !



I hate Physics ! rawrr !!



lost =x

There's a lot more pictures.
but I'm...
so freaking lazy to edit -.-
I even bought a megaphone that day,
to congratulate him for stuck-ing at his current level now. =X



and..
I MISS MY WHITE TIGER BADLY.
*tsk tsk tsk*

quited maple for almost 6 months.
-and currently playing it back -.-
during that period.
it died ..
aww..

oh ya,
my tiggy is way better
than your stuuupid panda larh Kee Yang.
*hmph !*

poooopies . lol

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11 days more :D

♥!

12 more days.

I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. I'm gonna shift. soon.

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Renovation is finally completed !
Yay?


not-so-"yay"-anymore.
have to clean the house -.- !

*wipes here*
*wipes there*
*ooops ! missed a spot*
*wipes again*
*and again...*
*and again .........* 

Obviously, I only enjoyed cleaning my own room.
It's so cooling.
the marine blue is so engaging on the eye. LOL!

most people would say my room is dark.
but it's fine for me :D

and the curtains came today.
there's only one word to describe my room now.
lovely.
:D

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Choral Speaking.

Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?!!!

How come 4 Alpha so lucky.
so darn lucky.

have to memorise 3 pages of script.
3 PAGES !  rawrr !
2 down.
1 more to go.

and need to present in front of the assembly tomorrow.
yikes.
hope everything turns out well.
and hope that I'll not forget the words -.-

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Delaying homeworks.
BIG problem.
sighs..

Maybe I should really start taking up initiative
to finish up my Komsas .
I'm dragging the work.
cause I-don't-like-Komsas.
-.- !

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Next post would be...
hmmm..
lemme think....

*still thinking*

-Edit-

It's about ..

 
Next post larh =X !

maybe i should just ...

forget ? and let it go ?

the last stare.

I don't deserve that stare.

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that stare of his
made an even bigger hole in my heart.
i feel sad not because it was the last stare,
it's just the way this whole thing ends.
it's definitely not I thought it will be.

what I'm facing now ,
it's reality.
I gotta be awake.
I gotta be myself.

only certain people will understand.
maybe.
or maybe not.

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walked home ALONE after Japanese class on Friday.
and something did happen.
that made me wanna scream.



why so many bad things are coming on me ?!?
Shooo ! GO AWAY !!

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Random pictures.

Bye!

there's a hole.

got stabbed right straight to the heart. but I guess its just a tiny hole.

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there is something that been bothering me last few weeks ago.
and I only mentioned it to someone.
something that i cant decide.
but there's actually another thing behind this.
and I'm suppose to tell it to my friends.
but i guess after telling ,
the hole will go even bigger.

that time..
I thought I should just let it be until the day comes.
I'm still gonna face it sooner or later.
its just the matter of time.

Instead , i twisted it.
now it's like  ...


Add. Maths .






mum was right.
I am a coward afterall.

my legs are killing me.

It's so hard to walk.

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I don't know why,
among all the Science subjects...
I'm interested in Chemistry.

ONLY CHEMISTRY.

and today [ tuition ]
I scored 30/30 for my Cathions + Anions = Compound.
yay !
the previous one was only 24/30.
need more practice : D

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Oh ya.

Happy Birthday Tiong Hsien !

totally forgotten about it.

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I guess I won't be running on Saturday .
If I continue to run ,
my legs will end up in a pot of curry . *gross*

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I thought of telling my dad that I wanna drop Biology and Physics.
but then ,
I don't wanna end up sleeping on the streets.

I'll face the fact that
I cant achieve and complete my New Year's resolutions.

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Let's see what will tomorrow brings.

Moving forward.

Anyone threw oranges into the pond / river / lake  today ?

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Last day of Chinese New Year.
ouuuch !

Had a great dinner with my family today.
not to say fancy or whatsoever it is.
Food nice. simple. delicious.
luckily never stay at home ..
thanks to Breena and Kritz !






for encouraging. LOL !




oh ya. I spot the nicest ang pao I received this year  : D

its not related to the rat year. Just Mickey and Minnie :D


After pulling the pink-ish thing at the top ...



: D



it's very cute .

Guess that's all for 2009 -CNY.

Goodbye Chinese New Year !
See ya next year : D

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# Back to  today's life
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been doing evil deeds the whole afternoon.
a.k.a Homeworks.

Followed parents to see the almost-done-renovating house.
- opened my room door.
- OMG. speechless.
- too good to be true . * slaps myself on the face * 

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I don't get to choose what I want.
so , I'll just live my life as what he want me to be.




Off to bed !